Random visions and experiences between 2011 and 2012

Over the course of 2011/12 I experienced a number of random and yet wonderful things. Many of which occurred when I was doing the most menial of tasks.  Here’s a quick run down of some of the occurrences:

  • Whilst walking the dog I began to  sense I was turning into a white Pegasus.  It was such a strange sensation even now I struggle to describe it.  Essentially I started to feel like my feet and hands had become hooves, my body wanted me to go on all fours and out of my back I felt wings yet again.  And to top it all off I desperately felt a sense of wanting to toss my head around as horses do.  It was such a weird experience and as I’m in the process of walking my dog on the lead I was really struggling to remain a normal upright walking human being.  I struggled to walk and felt very clumsy – I found myself looking down at my feet concentrating on having only two legs and moving one in front of the other.  Thank god I was the only one around at the time – I must of looked like I was really drunk  hahahaha.
  • Another time whilst walking the dog, I looked further up the path to make sure there were no other dogs/walkers coming our way that looked like they needed avoiding (got to love dog owners who walk their dogs off the leash and yet can’t control them :/ ) – no one was around which was great.  But for about 5 seconds a partial golden outline of a white robed figure stood along the path about 20 mts in front of me.  He/She was about 3 mts tall.  The outline appeared more masculine than femine but wearing long flowing garments.  But the outline was only 1/2 the body approx – going from the left ear, up over the head and down the right side of the body all the way to the ground.  Much of the left side (from the ear down) was missing.  And this outline floated about 1m off the ground.  An angel perhaps?  Who knows.
  • Walking in the shopping mall in the city, and I begin to feel such a level of joy and lightness of being.  I feel wings sprout out of my back and part of me wants desperately to fly off and have fun flying around the air – so much so that I could feel myself lifting and was just hanging on by my toes to the ground.  I remember looking around the crowds checking to see if other people were noticing what was going on but of course they all had their own pre-occupations. LOL thank god!
  • My main spirit guide up until around this time was Pomee – an old Indian chief.  Some time earlier he had given me a peace pipe during a meditation.  Odd because I didn’t smoke but I took it as a symbolic gesture of partnership, respect and friendship.   But during a mediation in late 2011 he came to me and after sharing a smoke using the peace pipe he looked intently at me – as he had never done before – and I knew that it was his way of saying farewell.  In my heart I knew he was saying that he was going to be taking a step back from being the main guide and letting another one come through for the next phase of my life.  It was actually a really sad moment.  It was at the point a guide who I call ‘Devine Miss M’ took over the job so to speak.  But  having said that – its 2016 now and Pomee has come back on the odd occasion and I still call upon all my guides regularly.
  • 2011/12 was also around the time I started learning about my past lives.  During a crystal healing session the therapist picked up on one which went along way to explaining stuff about a relationship I had had in this lifetime.  And why the break up of that relationship really effected me – which I could never explain or rationalise to myself.  Of course little did I know at the time it would another 5 years before I finally resolved it.
  • During a course on ‘Channeling’ which I briefly mentioned in my last post, I learnt some great ways to lift my vibrations and open up to receiving messages.  Our level of existence is so dense that if you want to communicate with them, it helps for us to meet them half way, and there are definite steps one can do to help with that.    It was during this course that I learnt about some of the many levels of existence – angels, the star people (eg Pleadianes, Lemurians..), ascended masters, gods/goddesses, etc…..
    My visit to the star people has had a lasting effect on me to this day. It occurred during a meditation in class – I visited another planet/galaxy/dimension (not 100% sure what but definitely another planet at least), and it was on this planet that I encountered a few beings.   The planet was very similar to earth in the sense that it had trees and grass with a sky, mountains and oceans.  But the colours and shapes were different.  The grass was pinkish purple.  The part of the planet that I saw was largely a grassy savanna with the odd tree that was purple too. The beings I met were human in shape – with 2 arms, 2 legs, a head ontop of a body….you know….like us.  But they weren’t solid.  Instead they were as if made from jelly or some clear silicone like substance – they were largely see-through except for the sparkles trapped in the jelly.  It was as if someone had made a human mold, filled it with clear jelly and poured a large amount of glitter into the mix.  The sparkles in these people were blue and white coloured – much like LED lights today.  In fact nowadays, some Christmas decorations remind me a lot of what I saw back then.  These people were taller than us however – somewhere between 6-9 feet in height and because they were clear there was no discernible facial features like eyes or mouth.  And yet they could telepathically communicate with me.  I also noticed there were no structures around when I met them. Whether this is because they lived underground (which is the feeling I got at the time) or they just hid them from me/took me away from them I can’t say.  But I called them “star people” because it was as if they were made from the stars as each of the sparkles seemed to emanate its own light instead of reflecting it from elsewhere.  I felt an overwhelming sense of love and welcome from them and the strangest part of all this was that they told me that they were my true family and that I had agreed to go to earth as part of my journey but that they were infact my true parents.  And somewhere deep inside of me I knew this to be true because there was just a deep level of recognition with this group of people that I can’t explain.  At the end of the meditation we shared our experiences, and the facilitators explained that what I had experienced (my strong sense of connection) was because I was from there, others in the class connected strongly with some of the other levels we had explored in other classes.  I just remember going home and for the first time in my life I felt deathly homesick – but not for my earth family, but my star family.  The level of homesickness I felt was far more than anything I’d ever felt for my earth family/home – even when I first left home.  And even to this day, there is a part of me that yearns to go home to them.

Angel cards & crystal healing workshops

2011 was the year that I started taking part in courses to learn more about the other side of life.

I had always liked crystals as things of beauty and for jewelry but nothing more. I didn’t believe in angels in the way that the church tells us. It just has never sat right with me.

A friend at work told me about some workshops she had done and I decided to try them out also. I figured it couldn’t hurt and I was always keen to expose myself to new ideas and experiences.

So my first workshop was a one day ‘Connecting with Angels’ workshop.   I must admit that I did go in a bit apprehensive thinking ‘here we go….brace yourself for the religious bullshit’.

But it never came up.

Instead I learnt about:

  • angel numbers (repeatedly seeing the same sequence or number pattern (eg 1:11). I had been experiencing seeing repeating number patters on clocks and posters for years but didn’t know what it meant. For example, everytime I looked at a clock it would always involve 1’s eg 1:11 or 11:11 or 11:01 or 10:11. Check out this article by Doreen Virtue for the meaning behind the numbers
  • another way to do automatic writing (slightly different to how my friend had shown my in highschool)
  • meditating to connect with them
  • various names and roles they have
  • how to know they are around you

Part of the day was spent using Angel Cards. I went along with the activity but didn’t expect anything from it. In fact I was a little hesitant as in year 12 I had a painful experience when handling tarot cards and since then didn’t think any of these ‘cards’ were something I should be getting involved in. But handling the Angel cards was an enjoyable experience. I felt like a goose trying to ‘read’ the meaning even with the help of the book that comes along with the pack. But on the third round, for a brief few seconds the cards in front of me lit up in different colours. I was doing a 12 month spread and some cards lit up with a gentle yellow haze and others dimmed a little, it was also accompanied by a strong feeling that the light/dark represented good/bad months of the year for my activity partner. I was blown away. I explained what I saw and she was very interested. After that I thought I could learn to use and work with Angel cards and have done so since then. I’ve purchased a few different packs over the years – like fairies, nature spirits, etc – but the ones I keep coming back to are Doreen Virtues Angel Tarot Cards. And I have had some amazing experiences using them. They are scarily accurate and I’ve been able to help a number of friends by using them which is the most rewarding part of it all. I still need to use the book that comes with it but am learning more and more when that is required and when just to use my gut instinct and intuition.

It’s thanks to this course and a channeling course I did later that I can sense the angels presence with me more acutely. This is partly practice and partly allowing them to come to me. We have the free will to not invite them into our lives but we also have the ability to invite them in.  And they want to help us – they want us to ask for their help.   And when we ask them to come to us they do. How do I know they are near? A few ways:

  • I get sensations in my body when they are near (eg goose bumps on certain parts of my body or a presence of something large but loving near me)
  • After meditating or even just thinking about them I see a white feather quite randomly
  • Repeating numbers

Another workshop I took part in that year was in crystals – more specifically how to use them to heal ourselves. This opened up a whole new world for me. The workshop went for a total of 3 days over 2 weeks as the first day was an introduction to crystals themselves – their qualities, properties, caring for them, how to choose the right one, etc.

I knew I was in for something completely unexpected when as soon as I walked into the room on the first day BAM!  Instant massive headache!  I had to apologise to the facilitator as I was feeling really ill.  A few others also spoke up and said the same thing. She gave us all a chunk of black tourmaline and within 5 mins we were all fine again.  She explained that our headaches were a result of the huge numbers of crystals that she had in her place and it was a common side effect when one gets exposed to the accumulation of so much crystal energy if you aren’t used to it.  And we made it through day 1 without any more issues.

The second part was a 2 day workshop focused on using them to heal chakras.

Again I found that I responded physically really well to crystals when during the workshop it was my turn to play the ‘client’. The group of 12 split into pairs, each ‘therapist’ had 60min to treat their ‘client’ using the skills and knowledge we had learnt in the 2 day workshop. I was astonished by how I felt after just such a short session. A pendulum was used to ascertain which chakras needed work, crystals were placed on to the chakras and allowed to do their magic, and in no time at all I was feeling amazing. A number of people in the group reported having the crystals get very hot or cold during the session, others reported that the crystals sometimes got very heavy and almost felt like they were burrowing into their foreheads. Some crystals moved and refused to stay still. And we were told about one former student who had a crystal fling itself across the room on its own accord mid way through a treatment.

Since doing the crystal workshops I’ve amassed my own extensive collection and think of them as my children. I can sense their energy and am continually surprised by what they can do. The warnings we were told in class about how they may disappear and reappear, go for a wonder, how they vibrate and travel if they need to (to make sure they get to the right person) are all true. I’ve experienced these things many times.

Still today when I enter a place that has large quantities of crystals I tend to feel a bit  hot or overwhelmed after a while – but at least I don’t get a headache or get sick anymore.  I know that in the crystal wholesale places I visit they roster many staff on alternating days as they too get effected by the enormous amounts of energy present in these warehouses.

I think its easy for us to dismiss them as just pretty rocks, after all they have no eyes or ears or mouth and they just sit there. But this is again from our own perspective, and we live in a world that moves at a fast pace. For crystals life moves at a slower pace (it would if it took you a 1000 years to grow one inch) so to us they appear stationary when in fact they have a lot going on under the surface.

Living in a cartoon of fairies, mermaids & dragons…

In 2011 I was feeling completely blown away by the experiences I had been having, and at some level was struggling to believe some of the stuff I was being told at various workshops and courses. This was purely because I had not seen any evidence of the things that they were talking about. For example, people would tell me about fairies, but I hadn’t ever seen any (on top of this I was still struggling with the fact that I had had interactions with angels given that I was from a non-religious background). It was odd – at a surface level I was very doubtful and skeptical but for some reason deep inside I knew it to be true…it just made sense somehow.

But my tiny journey into spiritualism so far has taught me that there are different levels of existence. Below is my very basic explanation of how I currently understand things – I’m sure more experienced and powerful psychics would be able to expand (even correct) the following. But for now this is where I am at:

We -people- exist on one level (ie commonly referred to as the third dimension). We can see and interact very easily with other beings and things that exist in this level. Some of us however get glimpses into other levels/dimensions. And there seems to be a lot of those.

Angels, spirit guides (including animal), star people, etc exist on higher levels (many describe these beings as existing somewhere between the 5th and the 12th dimension). Typically we associate these beings to be guardians/guides of people although many people have ‘elemental’ guides also.

‘Elementals’ is a term used to describe fairies, goblins, mermaids, dragons and other what many consider mythological creatures. They are the guardians/guides of animals, plants and mother nature generally. As I understand it, elementals exist on their own ‘level’ aswell. No idea about how or if they interact with any of the other levels. They are a mix of a one of the 4 elements – earth, wind, fire, water; plus the 5th element – the life spark. Humans are all 5 elements and this makes us very dense (in more ways than one bahahaha). Elementals will consist of only 2 elements – one of which will be the ‘life spark’. So an elemental might be made of earth and life, or fire and life for example.

Interestingly elementals seem to be very elusive. They are much harder to see than their angelic counterparts. From what I understand they only reveal themselves to people who are very pure of heart and who they can trust – which is why its mainly kids that can see them (before life and grown-ups get to them).

I learnt alot about them from Doreen Virtues “Fairies 101” book which was recommended to me. After reading it and putting into practice as much of it as I could, I started to glimpse fairies. Yes I have Ellie as a guide – who I saw before I read the book, but I’ve also seen tiny fairies around my dog on occasion – completely unexpected. And I must admit that Brian Frouds illustrations in his “Good Faery/Bad Faery” book are spot on – at least the ones that look like light emitting sparkly balls. I can’t comment about the others because the fairies I’ve seen haven’t looked like the other images in his book.

It seems that at some stage in our distant history humans and elementals interacted regularly but something happened – perhaps people started to believe in the power of industry and technology and forgot how to listen to their surroundings and this in turn made the fairies remove themselves from this reality level…or perhaps it was us that moved away from their reality level.

My mind is now boggling with the idea that if I’ve seen fairies, angels, spirit guides (human and animal) then whose to say that the other mythical animals aren’t real. I’ve now reached a point where I really wouldn’t be surprised if they existed also.

So do they each live on a seperate level …do they interact with other levels? I don’t know. I believe that certain ‘groups’ of entities exist at a particular level. As in our case – we are in the third dimension but within it there are people, animals, plants etc. Perhaps angels and ascended masters inhabit the same level and other intergalactic lifeforms – aliens/star people (good or bad) inhabit another level?

I also like to think of these levels as ‘layers of reality’ – much like layers in photoshop or traditional animation – with layers of plastic containing different characters etc. Imagine you have a solid background image (aka third dimension), on top of this you place a clear sheet of plastic onto which you have painted an angel. And on top of this you place another clear piece of plastic on to which you have painted a fairy. Obviously God/source (ie Us in the animation example) can see the whole ‘universe’ but perhaps each character can only see what is on their layer of plastic???

Who knows.

My Groupies

A few psychics I’ve been to have told me that I have a number of guides with me. In the early days I just took that on with a grain of salt. But since developing my own skills I’ve been able to meet them on the odd occasion.

Who are they? I call them ‘my dudes’ and we have a fairly informal relationship. No mystical reverence on my part that’s for sure:) That’s not to say that I don’t feel honored to have them in my life and thankful for their guidance. And respectful – I have a lot of respect for them. But mainly I honor the ‘spark of god’ within them as it is with all of us..They are just more evolved than we are.

At this point I still don’t know how many I actually have. I believe there are at least 5. The following is a break down of the ones I’m currently aware of and cover a span of almost 20 years.

Since starting this path I’ve met a number of them and have been fortunate enough to learn their names and occasionally see them. As I understand things – we all have at least one guide. Not sure what determines how many we have. For me – I have a number of guides but each has a greater presence in my life at particular points/stages. Sometimes one will step back as we move into a new phase to allow another to come through who is better suited to guide me through that next stage of life.

The first guide I was introduced to was Pomee – an old Native American Chief. He reminds me alot of my grandfather. Stern but friendly. I’ve met him many times in meditations and looking back I am convinced he was my first ‘invisible’ dude that used to visit me in my early 20’s. I covered that in this post He used to be a large part of my life but has taken a step back in the last few years to allow the others to come through. Regardless – he is my constant rock. I’ve shared many special moments with him in my meditations. I particularly remember an instance where he was basically telling me that he was stepping back. In that we shared a smoking pipe – I felt deeply honored that he would share one with me. Then at the end he actually gave me the pipe and although he didn’t say anything I knew it was his way of saying that he was taking a back seat for while. I remember opening my eyes and tears just streaming down my face. That was about 3 years ago and since then I’ve definitely noticed he’s not around as much. He still pops in from time to time which is nice.

The next guide I found out about was Ellie.
I first met Ellie when trying to get in touch with Pomee. But instead of Pomee showing up, I had a cloud of blue sparkles appear. The cloud consisted of about 20-30 loosely grouped blueish sparkles. So incredibly beautiful! And they hung around for a good 5 minutes. It was only much later I found out that the blue sparkles were ‘Ellie’. Since then I’ve learnt that she is an elemental (of the fairie kind) and appears either as blue sparkles or as a purple wispy thing. In her purple state she looks like purple ink dropped into a glass of water – very flowly and impacted by air currents. Before meeting/knowing about Ellie – I did not believe in fairies. When a psychic first told me about her and suggested I learn about them I was highly suspicious. But in the years since I’ve learnt a lot about elementals and have interacted with her and others. I’m now convinced they are real. More about elementals in another post though.

Then I met my animal spirit guide who happens to be a spider. Still not sure of her name although I’ve recently had an amazing interaction with her which I’ll post at a later date also.

Then I met my higher self. This was a little odd because on the one hand she’s very different to me – a lot taller, bigger oval eyes, long yellow hair, statuesque – but she also has a deep familiarity. I knew who she was from the eyes. The shape of them might of been different but there was something about her pupils that I instantly recognised as being part of me.

Then there was the lady in black who I like to call Devine Miss M. Her name as she spelt it out to me is something like Mestjaja but I can’t pronounce it so I call her Devine Miss M. I’ve not yet seen her face – I only ever see her in a black cowl. She’s more elderly judging by her posture and hands and I get the feeling she’ll be my guide later in life. She seems to be standing in the wings so to speak at the moment.

And more recently – since I’ve become a Reiki master and teacher, I now have a Reiki Guide along for the ride. He goes by the name of Master Hiroshi or Master Horushu….I can’t remember. I met clearly with him during my reiki master initiation and he told me his name but I was off the planet with all the energies around at that time that I can’t quite remember…I’m sure I’ll get it right one day.

What do they want? Just to help. But I first must ask for their help and then have the patience to receive it at the right time. [Which I’m still learning to do.]

Early settler

Relaxing in bed one night I thought I’d try Julie’s suggestion to receive messages from my guides. Julie had once explained to me that a great way to connect with the other side and to get messages is to imagine you are in a dark tunnel/cave and there is a light far off in the distance. You then have that light come towards you, growing in size as it does so. Eventually its so close and big that you are in the light.

My bedroom at the time was incredibly dark so I was able to lie in bed with my eyes wide open and visualise the light.

I allowed the light to approach and overtake me. When it did, I felt myself ‘land’ (for lack of better word) in the middle of some bushland. Not sure exactly where I was but judging by the plants and noises I was in either Victoria or New South Wales. There were a lot of gum trees and the undergrowth consisted of ferns and other plants that look familiar but I have no idea what they are called. It wasn’t like the scrub that you get in Queensland I know that much.

The whole ‘scene’ had a blueish/grey light to it – like very early dawn or lit by moonlight. Looking around I noticed that I was in some sort of clearing. All the undergrowth had been cleared and only the trunks of very large grey gum trees remained. There was the gentle chirping of birds waking up and the ground was covered in sticks and dried leaves. About 30 meters away there was a log cabin with a thin wisp of smoke coming out of the chimney. Not sure of the time/day/year but I had the distinct feeling that it was sometime in the 1800’s and that it was dawn.

Once I got over the initial shock/surprise I was amazed at how crystal clear everything was. It wasn’t just an image or a dream. I was actually there….and I still had my eyes open.

I stood there for a few seconds listening to the quiet countryside with the odd chirping of the first birds waking up for the day and a gentle rustle through the leaves.

For what ever reason I decided to move towards the house. As I took my first step forward, the sound of crunching leaves and twigs under foot was so loud in the quiet dawn that it startled me. This ‘start’ jumped me back into my room and the next thing I know I was looking at my dark bedroom walls.

The interesting part about all this was that I was quite aware that my eyes were open the whole time and yet what I saw changed. And yet it wasn’t just ‘seeing’ – I know was there. I’m not sure what happened. Part of it felt like my third eye opened and showed me another time/place, but another part of it feels like I astral traveled to another time/place.

No idea how any of this really works but I know it happened.

A petrie dish in the sky

One of my first attempts to see the aura of plants failed miserably – as so many things do when you first have a go at something.  Funnily enough though I saw something else which was completely unexpected but just as magical.

I was at the dog park and as my dog was running around I was focusing my attention on the various trees in the park.  It had only been a few months after I’d finished reading the Celestine Prophecy – so I was keen to practice seeing the energy field and aura of plants.  I tried desperately to concentrate on the tree trunks.  My eyes started watering but I could not see anything out of the ordinary.

So I moved my gaze skyward and tried to see the energy field around the canopy.  Although my eyes didn’t water, I still couldn’t see anything. But what I did notice – against the clear blue sky – was a few little sparkly flecks.  I changed my focus a bit and out of nowhere millions of little sparkly squiggly specks became visible to me.  They kept popping in and out of existence as they wriggled around.  It was like looking at a petrie dish in the sky.  Lots of little squiggly things wriggling around – but all across the sky.  I maintained that type of focus and looked around the park.  I could see them everywhere.  The air itself was filled with these little flecks.  It was just a lot easier to see them against a clear blue sky.  It was a really beautiful thing to see because they were like tiny pin pricks of light – so as they moved around it was very sparkly as if glitter was floating around the sky.

It was only much later after speaking to a psychic friend that I found out that this was effectively the energy field of the planet itself.  Since then I’ve learnt to be able to see this energy very easily.  It’s just a matter of adjusting the focal point of your eyes – a bit like those magic eye/3D books that were so popular a few years ago. 

Any one can learn to see them.  Have a go yourself.  If you remember the Magic Eye images you’ll know that the trick is to focus either just before or behind the image.  If you focus directly at ‘it’ you’ll loose the image.  I find its easiest to focus on the air about 2 meters in front of me – a bit like day dreaming when you’re not really looking at anything I guess.  You’ll know you’re focusing too close if you see black squiggles that seem to avoid your gaze.  By that I mean if you look left they move left.  These black marks will just be the scratches and hairs etc on the surface of your eye – hence why they tend to move in the direction your looking:)  The energetic squiggles don’t try to evade your eyesight – they are just wriggling in and out of existence and its us who can focus our eyes in such a way that we can see them.

Into a new millenium and a trip back in time

This post covers the next bit of my life upto around 2008 and my two biggest events that made me realise I may be onto something.

So 1999 clicked over to 2000 without drama – none of the computer and system meltdowns happened that people were freaking out about at the time. Oh how we laugh about it now….

My ‘dude’ would still show up every now and then if I wanted him to…and sometimes when I didn’t want him to. I’d have random dreams mainly of every day happenings. The frustrating part was that these dreams would literally last only 2 – 5 seconds…like a flash. And I’d just be left with this memory of an everyday sort of event – like sitting at a computer with 2 screens, digging dirt, talking with someone, viewing budget information…random stuff that didn’t make any sense at the time. I didn’t pay it any attention and totally forgot about them within the next few days.

The most eye opening event up until that point in my life happened around 2001. I experienced a dream in which someone close to me told me something I wasn’t meant to know about a friend. The next morning I called my friend to ask if it was true – which it was. My friend asked how I’d found out, to which I replied someone told me in a dream the previous night. Although I was devastated by the news I was also shocked by the way in which I’d found out. The voice had been so clear in my dream – it was as if they were in the room talking to me. That experience was the most amazing I’d have for a long time.

Then in 2004 I had an even more amazing experience. On my way home from work – I was quite tired and sort of day dreaming my way through the crowds. You know how you can go on autopilot so to speak. I was standing at a set of lights waiting for them to change. The lights changed and the crowd and I went to move forward. But in that instant I found myself in what I’m pretty sure is 1850’s America – I think it was what people call the wild west. Very dusty and nothing but dirt around. I was in a smallish town where all the buildings were made of timber, the road was very wide, some buildings had a verandah out the front, there were saloons and brothels and horse drawn wagons/carriages. It was an odd experience because it was like I was riding inside someone elses head and looking out through their eyes. I was a young lady – maybe 18 – walking with my girl friend arm in arm laughing and chattering. We were walking along one of the wooden plank areas out the front of some of the shops. I remember looking down to see what I was wearing and saw a full frilly dress in blueish grey with long sleaves and buttons all the way down from my neck to my waist, and I had black shoes with a small heel . The shoes were too small for me because my feet hurt terribly. What really struck me was the smells of the place (this may not mean much to you but in this lifetime I have a thing about strong smells -in particular body odour). Not only did I smell (deoderant wasn’t invented), but my friend did too. I remember thinking ‘dear god I stink’ but the me I was riding in and my friend didn’t seem at all bothered. And then I was over come by another smell – that of horse droppings and urine. The air was thick with a urea-like smell and just a general horsey smell. I was so fouled by the smell and all the sounds that I didn’t notice we’d come to a crossing in the road. I stepped out and almost got hit by a passing horse wagon which snapped me awake and also sent me back to 2004. And there I was just about to take my first step crossing at the lights with the rest of the crowd. Only 1/100th of a second had past in 2004 (if any) but I had been in 1850’s for a good 10 mins. And what I was left with as I crossed the road was the urea smell lingering in my nostrils, the sounds of carriages and the distinct clear as day memory of the place.

1850s AmericaI’ve found an image on the internet which reminds me vaguely of that time period to help give an example of what I’m referring to. The city in the image seems much more civilised though from the place I was in. My town was smaller and rougher and there were no trees. The men were rougher – more cowboy type than gentlemen.

As I finished crossing the road the experience amused me more than anything. Although I was surprised it had happened it didn’t scare me. I remember thinking “well that was interesting” and I went home.

To this day I have no idea what that experience was – did I manage to slip into an Alpha state and so was easily able to jump to a previous life? Did I encounter a gap between the two realities? Did I move through that persons spirit that was for some reason where I was? As far as I can tell it was the first – I was so brain dead that most likely I was in an Alpha state and so jumped effortlessly to another life where there was a message for me. Again my friend Julie was able to advise me on this experience years later. She explained that I was there to experience my sore feet as that is a sign of being afraid to move forward – which I was at the time in this lifetime but just didn’t see it at the time.

Getting back to my dreams – Over the following years many of my random dreams started to come true- or rather I’d experience what I had dreamt. Bit by bit I would find myself experiencing deja vu…over the most normal things. Where and what I was doing for work, where I lived and what I was doing to renovate the place and even to the extent of pets I’d have. The down side was that there usually was 3 – 8 years between me having the dream and me experiencing it. The one thing I’ve learnt from the dreams is how to differentiate them from actual dreams that don’t come true. Some how the prophetic dreams are more real – the images are crisp and its from my point of view, and I have no control over them. Where as with normal dreams I have a bit of control over, I can play back or slow it down to suit and there’s a certain flexibility to the visuals.

At this stage there are alot of dreams which are yet to fulfil themselves. I look forward to seeing if indeed they do turn into experiences. And I know that there’s alot of dreams I’ve had that I don’t remember having that will turn into experiences also – so I look forward to that moment and the joy it brings me.

In the beginning….

Ok this post is basically about my experiences during the 1990’s – late highschool to early 20’s.

My first ‘real’ introduction to the otherside happened towards the end of high school.  Sure in primary school I’d hear stories of some kids playing around on ouija boards but that stuff never interested me – if anything it scared me.  All that changed in highschool during art class.  I was sitting next to a friend of mine and noticed her writing madly on some paper.  To me the writing was incredibly neat but I could also see that it wasn’t her handwriting either. She explained it was autowriting – and she showed me how to do it.  Since then, over the years I’ve done varying amounts of autowriting myself.  Don’t get me wrong – my writing isn’t fast or neat and most of the time its illegible – even today almost 20 years on.  My writing has morphed so that now I just  end up drawing a line and yet the answer/information is simultaneously implanted in my head.  Sort of like hearing a voice but its by-passed your ears and gone straight for the processing point.

When I first started practicing autowriting, I would just get shapes, or my hand would just do circles in the air for a long time.  (Funnily enough I only found out what the circling movement meant only 2 years ago – it means they are saying hello.)  And for many years the hand I used would get a icy feeling in the wrist.  It was almost like someones cold hands were clutching my bones as they moved my hand/arm around on the page – it was quite painful and would ache. Thankfully, the intuiative I saw in 2008 – Julie Lewin (www.julielewin.com) fixed my wrist during the session and haven’t had any problems with it since.

In my last year at highschool I remember another friend had brought a deck of tarot cards to school.  At lunch we were all looking at them and playing with them.  When it came to my turn to hold them, within seconds my hands began to hurt.  I had to hand them back fairly fast as it was just too painful to hold them. Since then I’ve not been a fan of tarot cards. I don’t know much about them but they are clearly not meant for me to play with.  I’ve since learnt I have more success with oracle type cards.

About 5 years after seeing my friend autowriting at school I had my first ‘physical’ interaction with something. I was living in a rented share house with some friends at the point in time.  I was lying on my bed, enjoying the afternoon breeze coming in through the window. As I lay there I felt someone put their hand in mine and hold it – gently.  I opened my eyes to find nothing there but my hand was still being held by something.  Funnily enough this didn’t bother me at all – I remember thinking “Fair enough…I’m holding hands with someone I can’t see…..interesting”.

Another time lazing about in bed half asleep I felt something on my chest. It was quite heavy and I found it hard to breath.  I remember thinking “Do you mind not sitting on me” and then the heaviness went away.

From then on for many years I would have someone hold my hand whenever I asked if anyone was in the room with me.  It was very comforting. And I started to refer to this being as ‘dude’. Silly I know.  And every so often I’d see a disturbance in the atmosphere shaped like a man. I’ve tried to recreate it in the image you see below – there’s a change in the clarity of the object/things behind him.  Can you spot him?

Example of atmosphere being disturbed by a presence

Occasionally he was even a bit foggy but this was rare. And thats how it went for a few years.

Welcome to my world

A couple of years ago I had an amazing experience that left me wondering “Am I psychic or just going crazy?” So I started blogging about my experiences in the hopes of sharing knowledge with others who are also going through the same thing.

Gosh – where to start??  If someone had told me 2 years ago that I’d be doing this – a blog about my journeys, and that I would be very much into crystal healing and energy work I would have laughed, rolled my eyes and left it at that. Two years ago I was working for the Government as a multimedia developer and studying acting part time.  The job had turned from something I loved into something that was making me physically ill.  But the acting was something I’d always wanted to do and I was loving it.  I still do. 

So why start a blog?  Well…recently I experienced a day filled with A LOT of coincidences/messages from the powers that be and a culmination of a lot of little things that I shared with some close friends.  One of them suggested I put this sort of stuff in a blog and now that I have a bit of time I can!

Over the last year I’ve been getting a lot of odd things happening – either people saying certain things to me or I’ve noticed certain objects/words around the place more than normal.  And its had me thinking for some time now that I’d love to be able to help people with energy healing/crystal healing – but because I don’t consider myself any good at it, when ever the healing idea came to me I’d squash it and just ignore it almost.  I can’t really explain it – on the one hand I noticed these events but on the other hand I didn’t….i just thought ‘yeah whatever…’.  A bit like being told to do something by your parents but you don’t want to.  You hear/see it but you don’t.

And on top of all that my house isn’t suitable to have a dedicated room to do this stuff in- atleast in the way I’d like to be able to do it.  But recently I had a overwhelming idea hit me that was accompanied by a really big buzz in my body too – and it was to be a mobile therapist.  When I visited my family during the day and started talking about the idea they pretty much laughed in my face and brought up all the negatives of doing any mobile service(ie self endangerment etc) let alone crazy hippie stuff….so that made me feel a bit silly and I thought who am I kidding – trying to do this stuff is a crock.

So later that night I drew some cards and in the process of doing a 3 card spread 1 fell out – a phoenix (enough said), and the other 3 were basically : angels watch over you to ensure success; you’ve been chosen to be a spiritual warrior and you need to have courage/ don’t sell yourself short when it comes to your intuition; and thirdly – you’ve become lazy but don’t underestimate yourself.  I’m a master of procrastination so the last card didn’t suprise me:) And although I thought  “oh how nice to have that upper level support”, I was still thinking “but seriously I don’t know what I’m doing so no point”.

Later that night I meditated using my new lepidolite crystal and I had an amazing experience….basically a heavenly being came into me/very close that he seemed to surround me cause of his size (he was very big and in a pale yellow golden light) and basically said ‘see you can do this stuff’ although he did say it in a nice way.  And he said that I was an earth angel and that my wings were real (I had heard some one say ‘the wings are real’ many years ago when I first started having experiences so it was a suprise to hear it again – I’ll write about that in another blog).  And he said that my best way of helping others when I am a mobile therapist is to bring out my wings and embrace my angel side and its through that aspect I can channel healing. Gulp!…  ahhh I mean…  WOW!

That night/morning I woke up but it was still dark so I tried to go back to sleep but then  the dog woke up and wanted to go to the toilet so I had to get up to let her out and noticed the time was 4:44 am.  I thought to myself as I jumped back into bed that I must remember to check out that number on the internet the next day….and just as I was falling asleep something fell down causing me and the dog to fly from the room thinking we had intruders in the house only to find that some things had fallen over.  So since I was now WIDE awake I looked up 444 on the net and lo and behold it was ‘your on your path and your surrounded by angels’.

So it seemed to me to be a bit of a day of some mental slapping from the spirit world as I’ve been feeling very lost and unsure of my next steps – just treading water so to speak… but I’ve always had faith that the universe provides because my entire work history has been one co-incidence after another.  Something has always happened to me that has sent me off into a career…usually at the point where I’ve given up hope.  That will be a story for another blog post.

Its been a strange old world of late and now I am beginning to see the little hints and coincidences that the other side send through on a more regular basis. We ask questions and expect answers rather quickly.  I’ve learnt that that’s not how it works. The other sides idea of time is different to ours. We like to have/know things NOW but that’s not how angels/guides/etc work.  “Soon” for me means within the next couple of weeks maybe months at worst….but I’ve learnt that “soon” to the otherside means like 3 – 5 years of my time.  Or atleast thats been my experience.